I apologize for my absence. I haven't really had any poems that I've wanted to share lately but I will be posting soon and will try to more frequently. They won't be so much poems as random thoughts to release and I hope that you all will feel free to reply. I hope everyone is well and you will hear from me soon.

Future Love

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
SO WON'T YOU PLEASE FORGIVE ME
DON'T FEEL THAT I'VE DESERTED YOU
I'VE ONLY SET YOU FREE
I KEPT YOU TO MYSELF
WHEN I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU GO
I ONLY WANTED TO LOVE YOU
BUT HOW TO I DID NOT KNOW
IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT
SO PLEASE DO NOT CRY
I KNOW I'VE HURT YOU DEEPLY
BUT PLEASE FORGET THE LIES
I CAN ONLY WISH
IT COULD HAVE BEEN A DIFFERENT WAY
BUT NO ONE CAN CHANGE WHAT HAS PAST
SO REMEMBER THESE WORDS I SAY
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
UNTIL THE END OF TIME
MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER END
BRIGHTLY IT WILL ALWAYS SHINE
MAYBE WE CAN TRY AGAIN
RIGHT NOW I JUST NEED MY SPACE
SO UNTIL THAT TIME HAS COME
PLEASE NEVER FORGET MY FACE

Apart

BEAUTY IS BLACKENED
DAY TURNS TO NIGHT
THE PETALS FALL
FROM THE WITHERED ROSE
HER HEART GROWS COLD
AS HE SLIPS AWAY
EACH MOMENT
PUTTING MORE DISTANCE
BETWEEN THEM
ONCE PURE AND TRUE
A LOVE NOW LOST
BITTERSWEET MEMORIES
LEFT IN ITS PLACE
AFTER PROMISES OF FOREVER
HOW CAN SHE MOVE ON
DOES SHE HAVE THE STRENGTH
TO FACE THE WORLD ALONE

Scarred

THIS SCAR
A REMEMBRANCE OF YOU
LIKE MY LIFE
AND WHAT I THOUGHT WE HAD
OR COULD HAVE
AND EVERYTHING I WANTED FOR US
IT HAS ALL FADED
MY WINGS HAVE BEEN BROKEN
THE ROSE HAS WITHERED
AND MY HEART HAS DIED
YOUR FACE A PICTURE BURNED IN MY MIND
ONE THAT I CAN NO LONGER KEEP

The Tempting

OUT FROM THE DARKNESS HE CAME
A BEACON IN THE NIGHT
A HOPE IN THE DISTANCE
THEN FLEW OUT OF SIGHT
A VOICE CAME FROM ABOVE
CHILD HAVE PRIDE
LOVE ME FOREVER
AND I WILL MAKE YOU MY BRIDE
BOW DOWN MY DEAR
HEED THE ONE YOU SERVE
TELL OTHERS OF YOUR MASTER
AND YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE
THEN HE REAPPEARED
OFFERING A HAND OF SECURITY
I TOOK HIS GIFT
AND KISSED MY GROOM TO BE
THEN THERE WAS A TREMBLING
AS THE GROUND OPENED BELOW
I SCREAMED IN HORROR OF MY MISTAKE
YOU REAP WHAT YOU SEW
I FELL FOR DEATH TO LAUGH AT ME
WHAT A FOOL I HAVE BEEN
ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE DECEIVED
TO DWELL IN SATAN'S DEN

Goddess

WE HEARD HER VOICE FROM ABOVE
A WHISPER ON THE WIND
WE IGNORED WHAT WAS SAID
DID NOT HEED HER WARNING
AND A TEAR FELL FROM THE HEAVENS
TURNING TO FIRE AS IT MET THE GROUND
THE EARTH BECAME OUR PUNISHMENT
A PRISON CREATED IN HER FURY AND WRATH
STILL WE LEARNED NOTHING
CONTINUED TO DEAFEN OURSELVES
BLINDED TO OUR SALVATION
SHE TURNED HER BACK AND WITH HER THE SUN
OUR FREEDOM WAS LOST TO NEVER ENDING NIGHT

Warning

MY BODY SO COLD
ONCE WAS WARM
MY PAIN IS SO GREAT
I IGNORED THE ALARM
NOW I HEAR
BUT IT IS TOO LATE
I DID NOT LISTEN
NOW DOOMED IS MY FATE
IT IS NOT RIGHT
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
THIS FEELING I HATE
I FEEL SO ALONE
I SLIP FURTHER AWAY
AS I FIGHT THIS PAIN
IT WAS NOT MY FAULT
AM I GOING INSANE
I TRY TO LET GO
MY HEAD SPINS AND POUNDS
I TRY TO FORGET
BUT THE PAIN STAYS AROUND
THIS PAIN IS SO GREAT
I HAVE LOST MY SANITY
I KNOW THAT THINGS CHANGE
THE SAME THEY WILL NEVER BE

Should Have Been

IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
IN YOUR ARMS LAST NIGHT
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
YOU HELD SO TIGHT
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
THAT YOU TOOK HOME
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
YOUR LOVE WAS SHOWN
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
THE ONE WHO NEEDS YOU SO
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
BECAUSE I CAN'T LET GO

Emptiness

WHY
WHY DO YOU ASK
ASK HIM IF HE CARES
CARES NOT WHO HE HURTS
HURTS ME TO LET GO
GO AWAY
AWAY AND LET ME BE
BE ALONE
ALONE IS BETTER
BETTER THAN YOU
YOU OFFER FALSE LOVE
LOVE IS NOTHING
NOTHING IF YOU ARE NOT HERE
HERE I AM SO LONELY
LONELY AS I CRY
CRY OUT FOR YOU TO COME
COME BACK TO ME

Yearning

LOVE WANTS TO BE HELD
BUT IS ONLY PUSHED AWAY
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

THE BUTTERFLY WANTS TO BE FREE
BUT IS HELD PRISONER IN A COCOON
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

THE FLOWERS WISH TO BLOOM
BUT ONLY WITHER TO THEIR DEATHS
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

SUNSHINE WANTS TO BREAK
BUT REMAINS BEHIND THE BLACKENED CLOUDS
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

I WANT TO BREATH HAPPINESS
BUT DESTINY SMOTHERS ME
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

HIDDEN FROM THE WORLD
THE TRUTH NEVER TO BE SEEN
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

Goals

I was recently tagged by Billiam to post a list of goals, so here goes!

1. I am currently attending school to be a surgical technology and would like to finish the program in 2 years and get a job at a reputable hospital.

2. After I finish the surg tech program I plan to continue in school for nursing.

3. Eventually I would like to pursue psych nursing or pursue a career in some other area of psychology.

4. I would like to purchase my own home within the next couple years.

Trapped

HELP ME
I'M FALLING
FASTER AND DEEPER
INTO HIS ARMS
I LOOK INTO HIS EYES
HIS WICKED SMILE BURNS MY HEART
I TRY TO RUN AWAY
BUT HIS PRESENCE HOLDS ME
WHAT IS HIS PLAN
HE USES ME TO COMPLETE
THEN SLAUGHTERS ON THE ALTAR
AN INNOCENCE UNTAINTED
FALLING THROUGH SPACE AND TIME
CRASHING INTO THE WORLD
THE HELL OF REALITY
OF LIVING AND DYING

Rebirth

SOULS TRAPPED IN YEARNING
WANDER THE FACE OF THE EARTH
SECRET NEEDS BURNING
AWAITING THE REBIRTH
EMOTIONS FLY HIGH
AS THE END DRAWS NEAR
IN STILLNESS THEY LIE
UNFEELING OF FEAR

Deception

FREE FALLING
THROUGH MY DREAMS
FADING FAST
THE END COMES CLOSER
THEN ONCE AGAIN
HE LIFTS ME UP
THE BEAST
HAS SAVED ME ONE MORE TIME
FIERY WIND
FIGHTING MY FOES
BLOODY TALONS
SLAUGHTERING ALL
I SEE DEATH
REALIZING DESTRUCTION
BUT IT IS TOO LATE
I CAN'T COME DOWN
I WON'T LAST LONG
THE BEAST KNOWS NO LOVE
HIS SIGHT IS BLACK AND WHITE
I DON'T MATTER TO HIM
MURDER IMPARTIAL
I WILL BE NEXT

Go Away

MEMORIES
FLOODING BACK
YOU FILL MY MIND
WHY DON'T YOU FADE AWAY
YOU'LL NEVER REALIZE
HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME
BUT YET I REMEMBER
A FALSE LOVE ONCE FELT