I apologize for my absence. I haven't really had any poems that I've wanted to share lately but I will be posting soon and will try to more frequently. They won't be so much poems as random thoughts to release and I hope that you all will feel free to reply. I hope everyone is well and you will hear from me soon.

Future Love

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
SO WON'T YOU PLEASE FORGIVE ME
DON'T FEEL THAT I'VE DESERTED YOU
I'VE ONLY SET YOU FREE
I KEPT YOU TO MYSELF
WHEN I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU GO
I ONLY WANTED TO LOVE YOU
BUT HOW TO I DID NOT KNOW
IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT
SO PLEASE DO NOT CRY
I KNOW I'VE HURT YOU DEEPLY
BUT PLEASE FORGET THE LIES
I CAN ONLY WISH
IT COULD HAVE BEEN A DIFFERENT WAY
BUT NO ONE CAN CHANGE WHAT HAS PAST
SO REMEMBER THESE WORDS I SAY
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
UNTIL THE END OF TIME
MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER END
BRIGHTLY IT WILL ALWAYS SHINE
MAYBE WE CAN TRY AGAIN
RIGHT NOW I JUST NEED MY SPACE
SO UNTIL THAT TIME HAS COME
PLEASE NEVER FORGET MY FACE

Apart

BEAUTY IS BLACKENED
DAY TURNS TO NIGHT
THE PETALS FALL
FROM THE WITHERED ROSE
HER HEART GROWS COLD
AS HE SLIPS AWAY
EACH MOMENT
PUTTING MORE DISTANCE
BETWEEN THEM
ONCE PURE AND TRUE
A LOVE NOW LOST
BITTERSWEET MEMORIES
LEFT IN ITS PLACE
AFTER PROMISES OF FOREVER
HOW CAN SHE MOVE ON
DOES SHE HAVE THE STRENGTH
TO FACE THE WORLD ALONE

Scarred

THIS SCAR
A REMEMBRANCE OF YOU
LIKE MY LIFE
AND WHAT I THOUGHT WE HAD
OR COULD HAVE
AND EVERYTHING I WANTED FOR US
IT HAS ALL FADED
MY WINGS HAVE BEEN BROKEN
THE ROSE HAS WITHERED
AND MY HEART HAS DIED
YOUR FACE A PICTURE BURNED IN MY MIND
ONE THAT I CAN NO LONGER KEEP

The Tempting

OUT FROM THE DARKNESS HE CAME
A BEACON IN THE NIGHT
A HOPE IN THE DISTANCE
THEN FLEW OUT OF SIGHT
A VOICE CAME FROM ABOVE
CHILD HAVE PRIDE
LOVE ME FOREVER
AND I WILL MAKE YOU MY BRIDE
BOW DOWN MY DEAR
HEED THE ONE YOU SERVE
TELL OTHERS OF YOUR MASTER
AND YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE
THEN HE REAPPEARED
OFFERING A HAND OF SECURITY
I TOOK HIS GIFT
AND KISSED MY GROOM TO BE
THEN THERE WAS A TREMBLING
AS THE GROUND OPENED BELOW
I SCREAMED IN HORROR OF MY MISTAKE
YOU REAP WHAT YOU SEW
I FELL FOR DEATH TO LAUGH AT ME
WHAT A FOOL I HAVE BEEN
ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE DECEIVED
TO DWELL IN SATAN'S DEN

Goddess

WE HEARD HER VOICE FROM ABOVE
A WHISPER ON THE WIND
WE IGNORED WHAT WAS SAID
DID NOT HEED HER WARNING
AND A TEAR FELL FROM THE HEAVENS
TURNING TO FIRE AS IT MET THE GROUND
THE EARTH BECAME OUR PUNISHMENT
A PRISON CREATED IN HER FURY AND WRATH
STILL WE LEARNED NOTHING
CONTINUED TO DEAFEN OURSELVES
BLINDED TO OUR SALVATION
SHE TURNED HER BACK AND WITH HER THE SUN
OUR FREEDOM WAS LOST TO NEVER ENDING NIGHT

Warning

MY BODY SO COLD
ONCE WAS WARM
MY PAIN IS SO GREAT
I IGNORED THE ALARM
NOW I HEAR
BUT IT IS TOO LATE
I DID NOT LISTEN
NOW DOOMED IS MY FATE
IT IS NOT RIGHT
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
THIS FEELING I HATE
I FEEL SO ALONE
I SLIP FURTHER AWAY
AS I FIGHT THIS PAIN
IT WAS NOT MY FAULT
AM I GOING INSANE
I TRY TO LET GO
MY HEAD SPINS AND POUNDS
I TRY TO FORGET
BUT THE PAIN STAYS AROUND
THIS PAIN IS SO GREAT
I HAVE LOST MY SANITY
I KNOW THAT THINGS CHANGE
THE SAME THEY WILL NEVER BE

Should Have Been

IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
IN YOUR ARMS LAST NIGHT
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
YOU HELD SO TIGHT
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
THAT YOU TOOK HOME
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
YOUR LOVE WAS SHOWN
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
THE ONE WHO NEEDS YOU SO
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME
BECAUSE I CAN'T LET GO

Emptiness

WHY
WHY DO YOU ASK
ASK HIM IF HE CARES
CARES NOT WHO HE HURTS
HURTS ME TO LET GO
GO AWAY
AWAY AND LET ME BE
BE ALONE
ALONE IS BETTER
BETTER THAN YOU
YOU OFFER FALSE LOVE
LOVE IS NOTHING
NOTHING IF YOU ARE NOT HERE
HERE I AM SO LONELY
LONELY AS I CRY
CRY OUT FOR YOU TO COME
COME BACK TO ME

Yearning

LOVE WANTS TO BE HELD
BUT IS ONLY PUSHED AWAY
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

THE BUTTERFLY WANTS TO BE FREE
BUT IS HELD PRISONER IN A COCOON
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

THE FLOWERS WISH TO BLOOM
BUT ONLY WITHER TO THEIR DEATHS
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

SUNSHINE WANTS TO BREAK
BUT REMAINS BEHIND THE BLACKENED CLOUDS
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

I WANT TO BREATH HAPPINESS
BUT DESTINY SMOTHERS ME
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

HIDDEN FROM THE WORLD
THE TRUTH NEVER TO BE SEEN
TO WANT IS TO NEVER BE

Goals

I was recently tagged by Billiam to post a list of goals, so here goes!

1. I am currently attending school to be a surgical technology and would like to finish the program in 2 years and get a job at a reputable hospital.

2. After I finish the surg tech program I plan to continue in school for nursing.

3. Eventually I would like to pursue psych nursing or pursue a career in some other area of psychology.

4. I would like to purchase my own home within the next couple years.

Trapped

HELP ME
I'M FALLING
FASTER AND DEEPER
INTO HIS ARMS
I LOOK INTO HIS EYES
HIS WICKED SMILE BURNS MY HEART
I TRY TO RUN AWAY
BUT HIS PRESENCE HOLDS ME
WHAT IS HIS PLAN
HE USES ME TO COMPLETE
THEN SLAUGHTERS ON THE ALTAR
AN INNOCENCE UNTAINTED
FALLING THROUGH SPACE AND TIME
CRASHING INTO THE WORLD
THE HELL OF REALITY
OF LIVING AND DYING

Rebirth

SOULS TRAPPED IN YEARNING
WANDER THE FACE OF THE EARTH
SECRET NEEDS BURNING
AWAITING THE REBIRTH
EMOTIONS FLY HIGH
AS THE END DRAWS NEAR
IN STILLNESS THEY LIE
UNFEELING OF FEAR

Deception

FREE FALLING
THROUGH MY DREAMS
FADING FAST
THE END COMES CLOSER
THEN ONCE AGAIN
HE LIFTS ME UP
THE BEAST
HAS SAVED ME ONE MORE TIME
FIERY WIND
FIGHTING MY FOES
BLOODY TALONS
SLAUGHTERING ALL
I SEE DEATH
REALIZING DESTRUCTION
BUT IT IS TOO LATE
I CAN'T COME DOWN
I WON'T LAST LONG
THE BEAST KNOWS NO LOVE
HIS SIGHT IS BLACK AND WHITE
I DON'T MATTER TO HIM
MURDER IMPARTIAL
I WILL BE NEXT

Go Away

MEMORIES
FLOODING BACK
YOU FILL MY MIND
WHY DON'T YOU FADE AWAY
YOU'LL NEVER REALIZE
HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME
BUT YET I REMEMBER
A FALSE LOVE ONCE FELT

Take Me

TAKE ME HIGHER
ACROSS THE MIDNIGHT SKY
STAY WITH ME ALWAYS
ON THIS CARPET RIDE
CAN YOU FEEL THE MAGIC
RUNNING THROUGH YOUR VEINS
CAN YOU FEEL THE POWER
OF THE MYSTICAL RAINS
CAN YOU SEE THE HUNGER
BURNING IN MY EYES
I WANT YOU HERE FOREVER
MY LOVE WONT LIE

Again

I'VE SEEN YOU SOMEPLACE BEFORE
YOUR LOVE SEEMS SO FAMILIAR
I'VE NEVER BELIEVED IN FATE
BUT I KNOW WE'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER
EVERY TIME YOU LEAVE
YOU TAKE A PIECE OF MY HEART
WHEN YOU RETURN TO ME
YOU REPLACE THAT MISSING PART
THESE WORDS I DON'T JUST SAY
BECAUSE I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I MEAN THIS WITH EVERYTHING I AM
PLEASE BELIEVE I DO

Pain

IF YOU WERE MINE
I'D NEVER LET YOU GO
BUT YOU ARE NOT A POSSESSION
YOU CANNOT BE BOUND
YOU'RE LIKE AN EXOTIC BIRD
FLYING FREELY IN THE MIDNIGHT SKY
YOU HEED NO LIMITS
AND TO KEEP YOU WOULD BE UNFAIR
THE CLOSER I BECOME TO YOU
THE FURTHER I FEEL YOU SLIP AWAY
I CAN FEEL MY LOVE BEGIN TO GROW FOR YOU
I CAN'T ALLOW MYSELF TO BE HURT AGAIN
GOODBYE

Broken

IN THE GARDEN SHE LIES
BENT AND BROKEN BY HIS DESIRES
HER BODY WRITHING IN PLEASURE

Whispers

YOUR WHISPER
THE SWEETEST SOUND
UPON MY EAR
HERE IN A WORLD
OF OUR OWN
IN EACH OTHER'S ARMS
UNDER A BLANKET
OF STARS
MAKING LOVE
ONLY THE EARTH
AS OUR WITNESS

A Special Place

- I wrote this in memory of my grandma after she passed about 15 years ago

PLEASE FORGET ME WHEN I'M PAST
WHEN I'M LYING DEEP WITHIN THE GROUND
PLEASE DO NOT HOLD ON TO WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN
AND PLEASE LET TEARS IN YOUR EYES NOT BE FOUND
JUST REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES
AND PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE
WE WILL MEET AGAIN SOMEDAY
FAR AWAY IN A SPECIAL PLACE
OUR FATHER HAS SET IT ASIDE FOR US
MADE IT WITH HIS OWN HANDS
SO PLEASE WHEN YOU REMEMBER ME
REMEMBER HIS WONDERFUL LAND
IN ALL HIS GRACE AND BEAUTY
HE HAS SAVED US FROM OUR SINS
SO PLEASE LIVE BY HIS WISHES
AND LET HIM LIVE WITHIN
PLEASE DO NOT CRY OVER ME
I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOON
JUST REMEMBER GOD'S PLACE
FAR ABOVE THE MOON
I WILL WAIT FOR YOU THERE
YOU'LL SEE ME BY THOSE PEARLY GATES
PLEASE ACCEPT GOD NOW
BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE

Hope

RAINDROPS TRICKLE DOWN MY FACE
LIKE TEARDROPS FROM A CLOUD
THE THUNDER ROLLS
AND LIGHTENING CRASHES AROUND ME
SUDDENLY THE RAIN HAS STOPPED
AND LIGHT COMES FROM AFAR
I LOOK IN AWE AND WONDER
AT THE RAINBOW OF MY FUTURE
MY DARKNESS IS REPLACED WITH HOPE
I CLIMB THE STAIRS TOWARD HAPPIER DAYS
I KNOW I WILL FALL MANY TIMES ALONG THE WAY
BUT AS I DO I KNOW SOMEDAY
I WILL REACH THAT POT OF GOLD
THE GOLD OF LIFE

Runaway

RUNNING FROM HER PAST
SHE FEELS SHE IS FREE AT LAST
LITTLE DOES SHE KNOW
THE REAL DANGER YET TO SHOW
LIFE HAS BEEN LESS THAN KIND
PUSHING IT TO THE BACK OF HER MIND
SHE IGNORES WHAT SHE FEELS
BELIEVING IT NOT TO BE REAL
THEY ARE NOT GONE FOREVER
THE MEMORIES WILL COME BACK TO HAUNT HER

Fading

FOREVER AND LOVE
TWO WORDS THAT IN
AN IDEALLY PERFECT WORLD
WOULD GO HAND IN HAND
BUT IN REALITY
FOREVER IS SHORTER EVERYDAY
AND LOVE GROWS COLD
LEAVING AN EMPTY SPACE
IN THE HEARTS OF MANY

Gypsy Summer

MYSTICAL WIND
WHISPERING THROUGH THE TREES
SO GENTLY
YET SO POWERFUL A BREEZE
GYPSY GIRL
DARKNESS FLOWING
DANCING FREELY
MAGICAL CHANTING
IN THE SUMMER EVENING
A FIERY SKY
TO THE GROUND SHE FALLS
AND THERE SHE WILL LIE
UNTIL THE FOLLOWING NIGHT
WHEN SHE WILL RISE AGAIN
IN ALL OF HER BEAUTY
AND AGAIN HER DANCE BEGIN

A King

IN MY DREAMS YOU CALL TO ME
A WHISPER ON THE WIND
OF SWEET CARESSES IN THE NIGHT
BUT REALITY AWAKENS ME
AND DISTANCE PULLS US APART
I FEEL SO FAR AWAY
FROM THE WARMTH OF YOUR ARMS
YET YOU STILL HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART
AND I WISH FOR A DAY
WHEN THIS COULD BE MORE THAN FANTASY
WHEN YOU COULD LOOK IN MY EYES
AND I WOULD FIND LOVE IN YOURS
DANCING SLOWLY IN THE MOONLIGHT
THE STARS AS OUR HOSTS
AND WE COULD HOLD EACH OTHER
FOREVER AND ALWAYS

If I Asked

IF I ASKED YOU TO
WOULD YOU WHISPER SOFTLY
CARESS MY SKIN
TASTE MY KISS
AND HOLD ME CLOSE

IF I ASKED YOU TO
WOULD YOU UNDERSTAND
LIFT ME WHEN I FALL
PROTECT ME
KISS AWAY MY FEARS

IF I ASKED YOU TO
WOULD YOU CHERISH ALWAYS
GIVE ME YOUR STRENGTH
LET ME LEAN ON YOU
WIPE MY TEARS

IF I ASKED YOU TO
WOULD YOU TAKE MY HAND
AND WALK WITH ME
THROUGH LIFE
SIDE BY SIDE

IF I ASKED YOU TO
WOULD YOU STAY
PROMISE ME FOREVER
LOOK IN MY EYES
SURROUND ME IN LOVE

IF I ASKED YOU TO
COULD YOU GIVE ALL THIS
ETERNITY TOGETHER
LIFE AND HEREAFTER
IF I ASKED YOU TO

The Snake

Fallen angel deprived of love,
why do you cry for your loss?
You say he's left,
the one you long for
has left you scared and alone.
You weep for wrong
and want for sin.
Tell me who you fear.
Yourself you say?
I ask you why.
You say he's left you blind.
He's caused you not to see,
but you are not the only one
whose heart feels pain.
Pick yourself from the ground.
Do not wither like the black rose,
life taken from her,
now nothing but unhappiness to the end.
He will soon return to you,
belly slithering across the ground.
You will take him back,
the one who's hurt you so.
Like so many times before,
you'll forgive him in your ignorance.
Then you can truly say,
"I am entrapped in darkness,
my sight has been taken from me."

Tangents

love wants devotion
restless world
so uncaring
butterfly high
clip her wings
hopeless fate
everlasting
an eternity
for infinity
fall again
apart now
united we fail
rise again
new power
tears roll
down my cheek
destiny
taken next
go away
let me be
why
lock her in
prisoner
longs freedom
need you
here by
come closer
reach out
fly freely
dove from cage
not possession
unbound
chosen ones
need too

In Dreams

The darkness falls
And loneliness threatens
But promises
Of love eternal
Give me strength
To face another night
I close my eyes
And smile
As my imagination
Runs wild
Beautiful dreams
Of sweet caresses
The smell of your skin
Your heartbeat
Gently whispers
Against my ear

Captured

In this moment
Between space and time
Where only we exist
Two lovers captured
By each other's eyes
We speak without words
Only a touch, a kiss
My flesh tingles
With every caress
Your face a reflection
Of the love in your heart
An answer to my prayers
And an end to the loneliness

Forgotten

Little boy
On the Corner
In a lonely town
Seems he's in the wrong place
But who's to say
If anyone belongs
Little boy
On the edge
Of a tall brick building
He thinks he's going to jump
And he wonders if anyone will catch him
Little boy
In a dark casket
Deep beneath the ground
He's feeling a little bit better now
But still he wonders
If anyone will miss him

Walk With Me

Walk with me
Under skies of blue
The sweet smell of flowers
Carried on the breeze
Touch me
Don't be afraid
I won't resist
I see the passion in your eyes
Kiss me
Taste the rich wine
I save only for you
Savor each sip
Love me
As I love you
Body, soul, and mind
Hold me
Through the night
Our desires burning bright
As the dawn of the sun in the morn
When we peacefully rest
Dream of wonderful things to come
Knowing when you awake
I will be by your side

Love Lost

A cool autumn's breeze
Plays with my hair
Memories of the paths
Your fingers used to trace
A tear rolls down my cheek
Where your hand once rested
A chill runs through my body
And stops to rest in my empty heart
I hug my sweater closer around me
Wishing for the warmth
Your arms once brought
If only to have one more chance
The things I would do differently
You would know how much I love you
and you would stay forever